Wednesday, July 18, 2007

工作三天录

第一天:受训,让我们试印度小吃。试吃很好,可要背里面有些什么材料,要拿讲义回去读。 。 对我来说有点浪费时间。

第二天:试吃印度加哩,我喜欢! 很久没有吃了,可是晚上要开始做工 --噩梦就开始了。以前做侍应生的压迫感环绕着我。。 我还是蛮抗拒这个职业。我以为我可以,原来不行。他们也没什么不好,还让我们受训,可我就是过不了自己这关。可能是年纪大了,以前可以勉强自己做两三个月,现在,多一天都觉得好难。晚上十二点才回到家,漫无目的地对着电脑很久,很难过很难过,不想睡,因为不想这么快到明天。

第三天:很不甘愿地去上班,今天也是受训,其实没什么。 早上到的时候导师还没来,二话不说跑到对面公园去呆坐了半个钟,有想逃跑的冲动。可又觉得自己好不容易才找到这份工作,有比较稳定的收入,这样放弃对吗?

我还是去了,人都到了,反正只是受训。明天又要值班,盘算着要怎么翘班,反正明天有中介叫我和bheaven去做一天像上次一样的服务生吧。比较一下应不应该放弃正职。第一个星期就翘班, 可能不由得我考虑他们就打算炒掉我了。

没有见过比我更差劲的人了。太在乎自己的感觉,把自己宠坏了。 

5 comments:

Anonymous said...

Didi....
加油! 加油!。。。。Travelling & working is really a different story. It is always to have a start, maybe it is tough and miserable. After getting a while, you will be able to adapt it... From Momo

didi said...

ya.. i feel myself so vulnerable over here.....

i did skip my job today..go for another waitress one day assignment, and i think i should continue with the full time waitress for more a while.. just see how long can i last for.

Anonymous said...

First few weeks is transition period, i think you still adjusting yourself to adapt to the environmment...
当遇到挫折时,人类往往会选择性的逃避、放弃。。在这一瞬间,只有那些不服气的人才会坚持下去。。也只有坚持的人才会看到曙光.from momo

kinnasai said...

你很差咧!
If not working, when i go over, who pay my living expenses?

didi said...

thanks momo! you are so supportive.. ya, i will try my best to persist on..

pig kinnasai! you come la, see how well can you be!!!
and not to worry, if you come, you can surely get a civil job and, pay my living expenses! yeah!!